Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Dear Stalker

Thank you for filling my life with fear, anxiety, and paranoia. Knowing SOMEONE is out there watching EVERY move I make is so comforting, you have no idea. I hope there is someone watching out for you in the very same manner. It's a feeling I can not describe.

I realize my life is pretty much out there for everyone to see. I'm an online personality. I'm an author. I'm a "celebrity" in my own right, and as such I should be expected to handle those out there who watch every move I make whether it is online, in person, about my family, about my writing, about my beliefs, etc. I SHOULD be able to handle the scrutiny and ridicule.

But then again, why SHOULD I? Because you think so? Try it yourself. Tell me who you are that you are so much better than me, that you can watch my moves and report them to others and think yourself so much more righteous and pious because at least your sins are not as bad as mine? I don't name names, but maybe I should? Judy? Drew? Bruce? Shirley? Angela? Who the fuck are you and what gives you the right to treat me in this manner? Just because the church board has seen it as their job to chastise me and sentence me doesn't mean I have rolled over and willingly given them permission to ruin my life. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!! Telling me you miss me know is too little too late. Telling me I had years to change is true. But I don't see the need when you've had YEARS TO CHANGE AS WELL. The church hasn't changed its stand. And I haven't changed my mind on why I write. I stand for gay rights. That will not change. I heard when you said it's about the sex. Okay. I also said I was willing to work with that because it was never my intention to write sex. I write stories and sex happens sometimes. The thing is, you wanted me to roll over and beg forgivness for writing the things I have. I won't. They weren't my stories. I believe they came from God because they needed to be told. They were other peoples' stories. Sex and all. They came out of no where and touched others deeper than I could have imagined. I can't write stories like that apart from God. I had purpose. Then my heart was shattered.

Every time I turn around, SOMEONE IS THERE WATCHING ME!  I chose a penname for a reason. Don't all authors? It's because it keeps my real life and my writing life separate because sometimes there are fans out there, Like some for JK Rowling as an example, who can become a little phsyco--go all "Misery" on the poor unsuspecting author. I don't have that. I have fans who want to hold me and protect me from the very people I trusted and let in. I exposed my heart and everything I had and instead of caring for my heart, those people I trusted ripped me to shreds.

My penname is Wade Kelly because I liked a show called Sliders in the 90's. Wade Wells was the female lead. A girl in second grade was named Kelly Dodd and I ALWAYS liked her name. Hence, Wade Kelly. I then trusted some of my fans and fellow writers with my real name. Kade Boehme was among the first. Why? Because I love Kade and I knew he'ed love me back and protect my heart.

I've been hurt more by the church than by any other people in the world, and they just don't stop. They stalk me. Dear Stalker, do you have any idea how that feels? I wrote a fucking book! (Or maybe a few) and no one leaves me alone because of it. It's this how it feels to be one of the marginalized? This has to be how it feels to be gay and hated by the church. (And I in no way mean to belittle the LGBTQ people. I'm writing to my stalkers.) I'm being crushed in spirit, the same way fists break bone when someone corners you in an alley. I have no way out because the silent stalkers can watch from their hiding place and I don't see them.

My name is Gina Adams. I live in Westminster and that's why most of my books are set here. Westminster is what I know. I don't hide or purpose. I chose a penname because I thought that's what people did. Some authors in my genre (Men and women) do because their writing is seen as an abomination to others. They want to protect themselves. I know this well. Why is it so wrong to try and protect yourself and your identity? I tried, but I trusted the wrong people and now I suffer the consequences. I'm watched all the time from faceless zealots.

I know who I am. I know how God views me. My beliefs are MINE. I believe Jesus died for my sins. Isn't that the whole point of the bible?

Another part references "shaking off the sand from your sandals." Please do that. Throw your stones. Get it over with and move on.

I don't know what else to say. Leave me alone. Let me take refuge with people who want to protect me the same way I would for them. Maybe you think you're being a good friend, but not if you are crushing my soul. I'll have nothing left.

Dear stalker, be careful what you do to another person's soul. Is pushing me to insanity worth it? Is that what Jesus would do?

Thanks for my heartache. I wonder how you treat the other people in your life?

~Wade / Gina

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Moving Forward

Moving forward is typically easier said than done. I have a difficult time training my brain not to DWELL on the negative. I WANT to be positive, I WANT to be joyful and happy, but something inside clicks over to the cynical setting and I just see the glass half-empty. A couple years ago I remember a time when I was happy and joyful all the time. A fellow author called me Sunshine. I think she still calls me Sunshine, but I feel less sunshiney than I used to. My glow is dulled by life-crap. People like to drag you down, I think. When someone is sunshiney it is easy to get jealous or resentful and then others seek to steal your joy because it is easier to make YOU, or me, less shiney than for them to pull themselves out of the mire. Does this make sense?

I used to be so joyful. Where did that go? Well, I could probably point to the previous blog (http://writerwadekelly.blogspot.com/2017/08/what-ive-been-up-to-for-two-years.html ) and say that is the reason, but I am partially to blame. I LET or ALLOWED people to steal my joy. They wore me down and I gave in to some extent. No, I haven't rolled over, but I am also not as strong as I once was, nor am I as happy. I'm tired. That's really it in a nutshell. I'm just tried. I'm tired of being "watched," I'm tired of people riduculing me for writing some sexual cantent into my books, I'm tired of being treated like a pariah when I'm around "church folks." What I've learned is that some (not all) people I know in the church are actually less loving than those I've met outside the church. It's not supposed to be like that. The church is not supposed to eat itsown and crush the spirit of its members. I feel crushed. And yes, this is partically my fault because I believe people to be good. I believe people are my friends and I trust openly and this allows others to come in and crush my trusting heart. I understand if you disagree with me, and believe what I write is wrong and "sinful," people are intitled to thier opinions. But at some point, you need to back off and let me live my life. YOU are are NOT living it for me! You are not standing next to me day in and day out to tell me what I am allowed to do, or not do, according to your interpretation of the Bible. And I do say YOU INTERPRETATION because not every church preaches the same thing. Not every church sees things the way another church does. NOT every church sees Jesus or Christianoty the same way. And yes, I'm talking to the "watchers" of me, as well as thought-vomiting on my blog. Because this IS MY BLOG. I am allowed to write what I want, and people do read it. (Inlcuding those I wish wouldn't.) I am a person with my own mind and my own thoughts, who is beaten down. You have won the battle, I choose to no longer attend your church. There are people I will miss, some I will deeply miss seeing every week, but I can not subject myself to the hatefulness I get from the select few.

So how do I move on? It's not going to be easy. There is now a split between my husband and I. There has been an uncomfortable rift for a long time, but now it is very obvious. He goes to church, and I do not. This my girls see. The older one wanted to go to church to see her friends so my husband took her, but my younger one didn't want to go. She's home with me. Friends are very important and I know my older girl really misses hers when she doesn;t get ot see them. I will probably visit Taryn's church (my author friend) at some point, but for now I am taking a break. I need to find ME again. My spirit has been beated down and I just need some silence.

I'm reading a book called The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. It was actually lent to me by my tattoo artist, LOL. It's very fascinating and speaks about changing the way you think and the Law of Attraction. I need to finish it! I need to learn how to retrain the way I think. I need to find possitivity and joy again!

On the writing side, I haven't made much headway. I HOPE TO! I have loads of ideas and maybe once the muse gets moving I'll have many manuscript to submit. Fingers crossed. Will they be loaded with sex??? Probably not. Mine weren't loaded with sex before. I don't write erotica. But, for those who watch every little tidbit I write, there will be sexual content. When that will stop depends on the storiess and the characters. I write as I am inspired. The stories are character driven. If you don't understand this, it is because you are not an author! I believe and stand by the belief that I am inspired by God. WAY too many readers have told me "I wrote their story." I believe I am writing things that need to be said because someone out there is hurting and needs healing or closure. The sexual content is not the story, but in some ways it brings authenticity and realability to the readers. The sex is NOT the point of the story and may go away. My intent was not to write SEX. My intent was to write real stories. But I am NOT going to change what I write or how I write because a group of men sat down and wrote out a list of the things I am not allowed to do. NOPE. I will change only if moved to by God HIMSELF. As I believe I am inspired BY GOD, thent he stories are shaped BY GOD for the audience I write to. The church folks are not my audience, but boy they, might learn a thing or two if they just stopped JUDGING for a second.

I have many stories going through my head at the moment. JOCK 4, a Dreamspun Desire, one other story, and a re-write I'm working on. My issue is that these will not flow into a complete story. There are fragments, and the fragmants don't  go anywhere. With JOCK 4, I am convinced the story didn't get written because I am not done living the things Rob McAvoy needs to go through. I really feel like he's me in many ways and lord help the readers once his story gets completed. JOCK 4 will have angst. It is not the #2 rating on the Angst Scale that JOCK 1 is!!! Maybe a #5. I'm also incorporating bits of JOCK 5 into it so they flow, but I want to bring JOCK 5 back down to a 2 or 3. I need some happiness to end the series on.

Bankers' Hours is still not in AUDIO. I'm sorry, but I don't know what's going on with that. It was recorded LAST year. I think it's really good and I want to share it, but I'ver heard nothing. Sorry.

Anyway.... I'm trying to pick myself back up and take a few steps forward. Keep your fingers crossed for me to keep moving forward. I will write again! I will find my joy again!

Thank you all for your love and support. You have no idea how much it means to me!

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Love and Hugs,

Wade





Friday, August 4, 2017

What I’ve Been Up To… For Two Years

Hey. It’s been a long time since I’ve blogged. Heck, it’s been a long time since I blogged, posted, tweeted, newslettered, or bloody wrote something significant. I’ve had a lot going on in the past couple years and sometimes I talk about it, but most times I don’t.

Reason one: I don’t want to seem like a whiner. Everyone has issues, and problems and I don’t normally advertise mine because I’m not out to seek sympathy for every little thing. Sometimes I say something just so you know I’m alive and that I still want to write more books. I haven’t given up completely.

Reason two: I’m being watched. Although that sounds silly in some ways, it does affect me. I am an author and therefore I’m an online personality for the most part. My picture is online, I appear in person to book related events, I am who I say I am, and the author part isn’t my issue. It’s the people in my RL (real life) who have issues with what I write.

Reason three: I don’t like to cause waves. I’m a non-confrontational person for the most part. I don’t like stirring up trouble. It is not and never was my intent to cause problems. What I want is to write stories that take what I see and experience in real life and translate them into stories people/readers can relate to. This, I think I have done.

Those reasons stated I have to say it hasn’t helped much. Things remain the same whether or not I talk about them. And again, I’m not posting a blog because I want your sympathy or condolences, or even anger; I’m posting because maybe you will understand where I’m coming from and be patient with me as I work through my crap on the way to writing another book. I haven’t given up; I’m on pause. (Like in the middle of a movie.)

Back to reason one, I want to say I am not whining. I’m just stating the events of my life as things that have happened which effect my writing process and my emotional state.

In 2015 I had a fight with my son and he left. That is the short version. Since July 2015 there has not been a moment of reconciliation or even discussion about his feelings and what he thinks or wants. He doesn’t talk to us. This has been very difficult for me. Some may know we adopted him in 2010. This was a difficult process and very costly, but we loved him and made him a part of the family. It took time for my daughters to adjust to having a brother. He was older, which displaced my oldest, and he was “newer” which displaced the baby of the family. Then… only a couple of years later they’ve had to readjust to NOT having a brother because he doesn’t interact with the family. It’s been hard.

This emotional “trauma” is what my endocrinologist thinks could have triggered my thyroid issues. Thyroid is affected by emotions. YAY me!

I also had another incident with my church involving my writing and the board requested some “meetings” to discuss what I was writing. Some of these meetings were in 2014 into 2015, but picked back up again in 2016 into 2017. This is another whole thing.

In 2016 my mother was diagnosed with COPD and emphysema from smoking for 50+ years. She smoked a lot! So my brother and I took her to the doctor and stuff. Meanwhile, my son isn’t talking to anyone, and stopped talking to my mother in January 2016. In all of 2016 I didn’t write anything. I’ve been scattered. Too much going on and I couldn’t think about what to write. I’m working on JOCK 4 but nothing is flowing, etc. In August I was diagnosed with hyperthyroid which accounted for my weak legs, shaking hands, and anxiety and depression. I was put on Methimezole and Lexapro. In the fall of 2016, the church board thought I needed to have a discussion about what I wrote because “didn’t you just release a book in August?” – Funny. Yes I did. Back Off! That’s My Jock came out in August 2016. As I said, people are watching me and because everything I do is basically online, they knew that. So we “sit down” and have a chat, the long and short of it was “writing sex isn’t acceptable.” Don’t go off. This is how it is in some churches if you’ve been to any reformed Presbyterian churches. I know this. I chose to go there. I chose to write sex in my books. I allowed the “meetings” to go on many occasions.

In November 2016 I had a panic attack. My first one even, and landed in the hospital over night because I thought I was dying. I wasn’t. My heart in fact was in great shape! YAY. But the anxiety and depression were not being helped by the scrutiny of my church.

In January 2017 my mother was given 6 months to live. A week later, I was to meet with the church and be “sentenced” according to the grievances they formally listed in a letter to me. I’ve got enough shit to deal with in my life. I went along, I pleaded guilty, and was sentenced. I was not excommunicated, which was actually a surprise.

Yes, I have written sexual content in my books. They are romance with sexually explicate content. No, this was not the intent of my life to write sex in and all the time. This may change. I told them that. I was willing to work with their desire for me NOT to write sexual content, but that wasn’t good enough. I had to feel bad and repent of writing it at all. I had to feel sorry for doing it. I’m not. I am proud of my writing. I love my stories. Yeah, there is sex but sex happens in relationships and I write characters as close as I can to real people. I want to be real and relatable. So yeah, I wrote sex. This didn’t sit well.

In March, my husband tried to tell my son he needed to reach out to his grandmother before she passed. There was no communication between them. In April, my son joined the Air Force. He said he’d contact my husband with details of where he could be reached, and as of now (Aug 4) we haven’t heard from him.

In June (ish), I was approached again by the “board” of elders and asked, “Have you changed yet?” Um, no…. when was this ever an effective method of intervention? I’ve been dealing with life crap, and now asked again if I have changed. No. I haven’t. I’m the same cynical person I was before. Actually, I’m probably more bitter than before.

In July. My mother died. I listened to her drown in her own fluid. I smelled the scent of death I hope never to experience again.

I’m posting because I freaking tired of people “watching” me and passing judgment on my life. As they say, you have NO IDEA what a person is going through. As far as I know, in my experience with church order and structure etc, church discipline is supposed to be delivered in love. What I feel, isn’t love. I feel ridiculed, cornered, and attacked. You may not intend that, but that’s what comes across. (Church!) I have tried to express my concern for your lack of compassion. No one hears me. When have you asked how my mother was doing after I announced in January that she was dying? When have you asked how my son was doing? (Aside from one person in two years.)

Let me say this… In October 2016 I went to dinner during GRL with Steve Leonard. I don’t know Steve well, but while we were waiting for a table for like 8 people, we chatted. Do you know the first thing he asked? Steve asked, “How are things with your son?” Why did he ask that? He barely knows me. It’s because he pays attention and knows that the incident with my son was the most painful thing I’ve gone through in my life. He cared enough to pay attention. I get it, that the church “board” can’t know everything because they rely on Small Groups to get to know church members more deeply, but if a casual friend, whom I see once a year, knows my heart more deeply than a “board member,” then they don’t know and love me well enough to pass judgment.

Not one person from this church board showed up at my mother’s viewing or funeral. I’ve been going to that church for 7 years. I’m there almost every week. (Except recently). My boss, whom I’ve known for 5 months, showed up at the viewing because he cared enough about me to make the time. Friends whom I haven’t seen in years took off work to make time to spend 15 minutes with me at a viewing because they cared enough to do so. What kind of message do you think this sends about the church to ME. You lack compassion and caring. I get it, I wrote sex and I am not repenting of such and so I’m under “discipline,” but now I feel as though I don’t measure up to your standards and therefore don’t matter in the long run. This, is very sad.

I do not mean to be an embarrassment to my husband, family, or church, but I DO take this very personally. There are people who have come out of the woodwork to pay respects, and yet my church “family” hasn’t. NOTE: I do not count the people who have reached out! I know who you are. I am speaking directly to the board who has let me down. Those who feel they can pass judgment over me and yet not spend 5 minutes consoling my family. You’ve lost my respect. I am no longer attending that church. If I visit, it is because I DO have friends there that I will miss.

This is all ONLINE, as everything else in my life is online. If you don’t care to know me, then defriend me. I’m a very transparent person. I talk. It’s what I do. And I’ve held in the details of my life far too long. I tried to be respectful of the church, but I no longer feel like my life matters to you. I’m not clean enough—this is the message you sent me.


“I’ve brought my damned best, and it’s not good enough.” – (paraphrased. Damien Mitchell)


On the writing side of things, I'm trying. Words are not flowing well as I've been dealing with emotional crap. I hope to write and finish a book this year. Fingers crossed.


My parents 


Thursday, March 16, 2017

LONG TIME

Sorry, It's been MONTHS!

SO what have I been doing between now and last November? Um, I had a couple panic attacks; one of which had me in the hospital. I had some issues with my church. (Which is an ongoing thing and probably will never truly go away.) I've been depressed and sleepy all the time. My thyroid is way off and it's doing weird things in my head. My endocrinologist said I am in a constant state of metabolic flux. YAY! I hope it will get straightened out soon.

Writing: I haven't done any.

Goals: TO WRITE!

I went to the Dreamspinner Workshop and I feel a revitalization coming on. Plus, I often get e-mails asking me about a story for Rob and Russell. My answer is YES, I'm writing it now. I have been working on it since last year, but didn't write for months and months which is why it isn't finished yet.  My goal is to work on JOCK 4 (ROB) and JOCK 5 in order to finish out the series.

Since All Romance eBooks closed it's doors, I have been considering what to do with JOCK 1.5, the little free short that told readers what happened between JOCK 1 & JOCK 2. I decided to add the 4 chapters into JOCK 4. I may tell them from a different POV and condensed, but the information will be in JOCK 4. I also may have the file as a download on my website for those who'd like to have it. Still figuring this all out.

What I want to focus on:

JOCK 4
JOCK 5
and a Dreamspun Desire book

after these, you never know what will come out of my head. I have LOTS of book ideas!

I haven't gone away, I simply took a break.

Love you all,

Wade

Monday, November 28, 2016

Wade Kelly Newsletter

YES! I am starting a newsletter. I plan to send it out monthly, starting on December 1, 2016. I hope I have something interesting to say. I will try to keep the content as different as I can from other social media. If you would like to sign up, here is a link: NEWSLETTER!


This is just another way for people to stay in touch with me, especially those who do not have facebook.

Thank you for your love and support! <3

AND, Thank you to all of those who participated in the Big Gay Fiction Giveaway!

xoxoxo,

Wade

Saturday, November 26, 2016

The Big Gay Fiction Giveaway

Running from November 20-27, I am a part of a huge giveaway through Instafreebie.com

You can find out about what authors of the 85 are participating by clicking on:

http://www.jeffandwill.com/biggayfictionpodcast/big-gay-fiction-giveaway-november-20-27/

Or

http://www.michaeljensen.com/free-books/





My contribution to this event is Misplaced Affection because it is the only book I own the rights to. If you already own that book and would still like to be a part of my monthly mailing list (The one I am starting on December 1st,) you can click HERE.

Thank you for stopping by my blog :)


Thursday, October 6, 2016

Dirty Dozen - Brandon Witt

Hello, lovely readers. Thank you for stopping by for this special post from Brandon Witt, who is part of the "Dirt Dozen." Each year, the Dirty Dozen gears up for GRL with a blog tour. 12 authors, 12 days, 12 posts. This year the authors include: Brandon Witt, TM Smith, Jordan L. Hawk, Alexa Land, Jeff Adams, LE Franks, Morticia Knight, Jake C Wallace, K-lee Klein, Tempe O'Riley, AE Via, and myself. Each author can up with a question for this interview style post, and the author of the day answers the questions. It's fun! So let's get started.

I've met Brandon and I can tell you he is a warm and wonderful person.



Thank you, Brandon, for joining me. One for Brandon's novels is titled The the Stars Fall. I am currently listening to the audio and I think it's wonderful. It is a very warm and sweet romance. For those readers who like books without graphic sex, this one is for you! It's all about the relationships! I liked it so much, I have another of his audio books when I'm finished this one.


On with the questions....

Tams asked – If you could spend the day with one of your characters, which one would it be, and why?
Donnie Durke, from The Shattered Door.  The idea of this book came to me on the way home from my cousin Gabe’s funeral.  He was twenty-five or twenty-six, I was twenty-four or twenty-five (I think, time does funny stuff to one’s memory).  Donnie was based off of my cousin Gabe—beautiful, kind, funny, charming, too good to be with us on earth for very long. I still miss him.


Jeff asked - What are you working on currently and what's its inspiration?
I’m working on four novellas in a series called Mary’s Boys.  All four of them will be out in ebook by GRL 2017 (and will be combined in a paperback edition at the same time as the 4th one is published).  They are all set in Denver at Hamburger Mary’s, which is a gay restaurant chain.  This is my first time doing novellas, and they are a little more traditionally romance focuses than my normal.  If you read Under a Sky of Ash, and enjoyed the drag queen ManDonna, you’ll be thrilled to know she shows up in all four stories.

Wade asked - If the lead character in your current novel were to read your other books, which one would be his/her favorite and why?
The first book of my Rocky Mountain Boys series will be on pre-order by GRL Kansas City.  One of the lead characters in that book is Luis Martinez who moves to Estes Park, Colorado from California in a spur of the moment leap in order to re-start his life.  I think he’d most appreciate The Imperfection of Swans, as Kevin does something similar.  He doesn’t move away from home, but abandons his high-paying corporate job to open his dream wedding dress shop.

Jake asked - If all of your MCs were thrown into a strange and dangerous world where survival relies on ingenuity, creativity, common sense who would come out on top?
I think Brett Wright, from my Men of Myth series.  His combination of demon, mermaid, and human ancestry would aid him well.  Not to mention the fact that he’s immortal.  At least, as far as he knows….

Brandon asked (yes, I guess that means he's talking to himself. lol) - What musician or album do you think people should listen to as they read your work because it fits the soul of your words (either a specific title or your writing in general)?
I have to go with Joy Williams’s Venus album if you’re reading The Imperfection of Swans.  It was on constant replay as I wrote the last of that book.  And the title came from her song, You Loved Me, even though it doesn’t mention anything about swans.  

In general, if you play Joy Williams, Amy Grant, The Civil Wars, Adele, Faith Hill, Natalie Cole, Erin McCarthy, Sara Bareilles, John Mayer, Mills Brothers, Pasty Cline, Leighton Meester, and Matt Alber, I think you’ll have a pretty perfect back drop for my contemporary novels.  My Men of Myth series would need a different playlist.

Morticia askedIf you could be one of your characters and live their life, who would it be and why?
I can’t say I’d want to face all that Brett Wright had to face in my Men of Myth series, but I’d still like to be him.  To live under the ocean with the mermaids and mermen???  Yes, please!

Tempeste asked–  If you could be a fruit, any fruit, which would you be and why?
I think a fig.  They always get put on charcuterie boards with all the best cheeses.  That would be heaven.

Jordan asked –  What is the thing you enjoy most about gatherings like GRL?
Seeing friends that understand me in a way that no other people in my life can understand me.   We all have a shared, geeky bond of writing and/or reading.  It’s wonderful. And relaxing.

LE Franks asked –  What is the most vivid romantic moment from any film that has lingered the longest and meant the most to you…. and why?
In The Last Unicorn, which you must see, the prince refused to be responsible for the Amalphia remaining human when she should be a unicorn.  He put his love for her above his desire.  As a result, she is the only unicorn in existence that can experience regret and truly know love.  It’s beautiful.  And yeah, I know, I’m fucked up.

K-Lee askedIf you could take any fictional couple or character (television, movies, real-life, books) and add them to one of your books, who would it be and why? 
The entire cast of Downton Abby.  I want them in every book I write and I want them in every room of the house.  And I want to have Maggie Smith simply sit there and pass judgment upon me.

AE askedWhat kind of quirky habits do you have before or during the time you write?
I have a very strict routine I follow.  From the food I eat, to the coffee I drink, to how long I write at a time.  I’m not one that can sit and write anywhere.  I’m a creature of habit.  And I have all of my My Little Pony characters assembled to the left side of my computer.  Whenever I start a new book, they get rearranged.

Alexa askedWhen you write, do your characters hijack the story, or do you keep a tight grip on the reins?

I’m a huge planner and outliner.  We’re talking family trees, pages of characters notes, lists of questions and problems, etc.  That said, I may have to do multiple outlines, as the characters nearly always change what I think is going to happen.


This was great! Thanks for answering all those fun questions. For readers who wonder about some of his other books, I'll list a few.






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Thursday, August 25, 2016

Soccer Jerseys for the JOCK Series

Hello, lovely readers.

I had SOCCER JERSEYS made special for the soccer players of my jock series.


You can choose home or away colors for 8 different characters:

Jackson #1
Garber #3
Archer #7
Montgomery #11
Rafferty #14
Harder #19
McAvoy #00
Reid #68

On the WEBSITE you will see Jackson and Montgomery listed as examples of the back of the shirt, however, there is a scroll menu when you choose the color of the shirt where you can pick the player, then another scroll to pick the size. The cost is $31.99 plus shipping. (There will also be MD sales tax) There is an additional cost for larger sizes. $2 more for 2XL, $3 more for 3XL and $4 more for 4XL, but I still think they are reasonably priced for good quality soccer jerseys. I will take a pic of me wearing mine and upload it soon. You may order directly from me, or from the printer's website. I list shipping charges on my website which may vary from the printer.


There was also a question of sizing. I measured the Med and Large shirts myself and the medium shirt was 40" across the chest under the arm pits. The large was 44". I normally wear a large at 42". The large I tried on was a tad big, but it is a sports jersey and I think they do that on purpose. Personally, I am going with a medium because it fits fine. That's just me. :) The printing company is working on a size chart for me to post. It's coming soon. 
Thanks. I hope you like them.

This initial store will run for about 4 weeks. Orders may be held until the end of this 4 week period, depending on the amount of sales. I will be made aware of sales and if they are higher than expected, then the wait for your shirt may be less than 4 weeks. This is JUST starting, so bear with me.



Wednesday, August 17, 2016

My Life Is Never Simple

Hey there, good people. This summer has been the fastest summer of my life. Just crazy busy and weird things piling up.

So first, there was 5 weeks of tennis for my girls right after school let out. I have 2 daughters, 15 & 11. Tennis was 3 times a week for 5 weeks. I thought I'd have some time for myself, while they were playing, but somehow time flies. Those five weeks went by so darn fast between tennis and swimming at friends houses and me driving them to spend the night etc. And all of a sudden it was August and I didn't remember July.

Yet, also during the summer, and extending back to like April, I've also been worrying about my mom and brother. My mom has emphysema and my brother and I have been talking to doctors and stuff. A lifetime of smoking did this, but condescending doctors are not helpful. I'm taking it one doctor's appointment at a time and being there to take her wherever she needs to go. She lives with my brother an hour from me so doctor appointment days take most of the day.

THEN, because it's never simple for me, I fell in my driveway and scraped my knee. A small cut. It ripped my only jeans so I was mainly upset about that, but 5 days after cleaning it out the area swelled up and got freaking HOT. I went to the doctor and they said it was infected. I was on TWO rounds of antibiotics, but it is STILL swollen. I have another appointment today with my orthopedist.

August has been crazy and this is only week 3. Week 1 was a HUGE kids festival thing my church is involved in. My kids are in it and I volunteered to serve snacks. It was Aug 1st-5th and pretty much exhausted everyone. It was a good week. Fun. Exhausting. And I took drugs for my knee, but also had gone to get blood drawn three times. I had gotten it in my head that I needed to know that I was healthy because I need to be strong for my mom, my brother, and the rest of my family. All tests came back good except one. My liver and kidneys are good. My cholesterol is good. My heart is fine. My blood pressure etc. My thyroid, however, is not. Durning Kids Fest Week, the doctor called to tell me I needed to see an endocrinologist immediately. I asked, "Will I die tomorrow?" because she sounded worried. The Doc said no. I was glad because I was going on vacation August 8-14. I figured my thyroid had probably been off for a long time so another week wouldn't matter.

I had gone to the doctor in the last week of July because I wanted bloodwork done to know if there was anything else wrong. I'd been seeing a therapist since January and the anxiety and depression hadn't gone away. I rarely slept. My heart was always racing. My mind never shut down. So the doctor prescribed a low dose of Lexapro. I've been on that for 3 weeks and I haven't slept this good in a year. I thought most of my mental issues were over my sadness and troubles with my son. Our argument and his leaving last July rocked me to the core. The Lexapro has really helped!

Anyway... I was on Lexapro the first few weeks of August and now I'm on a medication for my thyroid. Yesterday I had an appointment with my doctor to discuss my thyroid because the only Endocrinologist in town can't see me until October. I have Hyperthyroidism. My TSH # was undetectable, while T3 & T4 are elevated. In a perfect world, maybe they could straighten out my Thyroid and maybe I wouldn't need Lexapro. IDK.

What I do know is that Vacation was relaxing. I listened to several audiobooks while my kids swam. Sutphin Boulevard, The Starving Years, and Beneath the Stain. All were good! Beneath the Stain by Amy Lane was outstanding!

When I got back, I hit the ground running and took my mom to the pulmonary specialist at 9:30 in the morning Monday. (Which meant I had to leave my house at 7) Tuesday, I saw my doctor, and my daughter had a dr appointment for her 11 yr wellness visit. Today I have another dr appointment, and Thursday I see my therapist. GO. GO. GO. I never get a break.

The one thing that had troubled me and plagued me since January is the inability to write. I know my brain is a mess. I've been screwed up since July 2015. I thought seeing the therapist would help, and it has in many ways, but my creativity has disappeared. I have ideas, but no voice. I have words, but no passion. Not sleeping for months didn't help. I hope straightening out my body will fix my brain. I want to find my voice again.

One person who wrote a review for JOCK 3 on Goodreads said, "Wade Kelly has outdone herself with this one." I am so glad for that because I love this book so much. But I worry I won't find myself again. I want JOCK 4 to be incredible. I want people to weep with Rob because you know J4 is for him.

So this has been my life this year. I told the doctor I always have weird things going on. I plan to die from a satellite landing on my car while I'm on the Baltimore beltway. She laughed and said, "Oh, my. I hope not." But this is how my mind works.  Nothing is simple. Nothing is normal. Always weird. We had discussed my family history too and I said everyone died of weird things like drowning not any specific disease like heart attacks. My two grandmothers died in their 90's. The people who died younger all smoked. I don't smoke, so I hope that will help change history.

So this is all very candid. This is me. I'm not hiding, I'm not exaggerating, and I'm not saying I have the worse life ever. I know people have it way worse than me. I am just saying this is why I disappear sometimes. I live in the fast lane sometimes and it has to do with taking care of my family. I want to write. I will write. I live to write. Just lately weeks have flown by so fast I can't think.

JOCK 3 is coming up fast. August 26th! I hope you like it. Follow the interviews and comment to win.

I love you guys. My readers and fans mean so much to me you have no idea. Thank you for understanding and standing by me through everything.

I guess that's all I have to say.